Thursday, February 25, 2010

My journey, my process..III

My days with my husband like everyday is honeymoon. We learned to know each other more and more as putting our selves in each other shoes. I am more on expressive and show my inner thoughts through talking and talking. He is a good listener but he said sometimes he spoils me. I always been in his attention aside from things at home that I could remind him to do. It remind me that only God put us in the situation or position to glorify Him. God is glorify through my husband attitude in dealing with me so as my attitude in dealing with my husband. We always said these that God is awesome through him or me. I don't have regrets in my heart that I marry him. I am contented and very much happy. I do believed that marriage is a gift and it is in the bond of Christ. Husband, Christ and Wife Christ should always be the center. If we submit to Christ first it's not hard to submit to one another. It is Christ bond that keeps marriage strong. It is not our own effort, everything will just follow if we have Christ within. I remember Paul remind all singles in Corinth to "not to equally yoke to unbeliever" because he knows the consequences of disobedience. It is good to wait upon the Lord because His best is truly the best for us and its worth waiting for.

My journey, my process.. II

In 2009, first month of the year was our choice for our wedding ceremony. I'd known my husband through a friend of mine she got married 2 years ahead his husband is close relative to my husband family. The very first time she saw my husband, she saw myself in a glance and remember me without any hesitation she talked to him and later gave my picture. His heart was pounding upon seeing my image, there was a small voice with in said, "this is the woman I prepared for you.." He was praying so hard that he could reached me since my friend didn't know where my about. I was there in Saudi working in MOH that time, when my cellphone received so many miss call for 2 weeks. Then one morning duty I received the call then that was the first time we talked, then he sent letters then lately we chat. It took 2years for us to know each other and became friends. He has all the man qualities I desired with. His eyes, his gentleness, his thoughtfulness and above all we have one in common we have Christ. Knowing him was just the right time after the grieve days from my mother's death. Truly, only God make all things beautiful in His time. I appreciated that during his solitaire he spent his time making Poems to express his self. He made 3 poems for me. I would like to share his one poem from our wedding invitation.

"God's Hand of Creation”

I give you my heart as my wife

I live with you to start a new life

We share each other's heart

We prepare for this day to start

These oceans that keep us apart

These emotions that speak to our heart

We meet together on foreign land

While, brought together by God's hand

As we keep our eyes on God's Word

As hearts will reap what is heard

Today with these rings of love we both share

Tomorrow with these brings new love we both declare

As i give myself

I will live for your self

As husband I lay aside my life

As husband I pray beside my wife

Yesterday the two of us begun

Today the two of us are one

Now that we are one

We represent the church and the Son

Yesterday as individuals our life just begun

Today as husband and wife we are one

As we cleave to one another

We will leave all other

As we put these bands on our hands

Together with God's hand we will take a stand

I have this love for my wife

You are the love of my life!

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

My journey, my process..I

Its been quite busy days for daily work at the store, wake up early in the morning then start the day with overflowing joy within, grabbing my Bible and my journal notebook, reading His Word is my daily food, worship HIM and praising HIM is my delight. It feels pretty good refreshing to stay in the Eden (God's presence all day). Alone and loneliness is different thing, you can be alone and happy, alone & lonely, along with friends around but still lonely. Away from God's presence makes us feel alone and lonely. To be in God's presence we have joy overflows from within and completeness in Christ. The Word of God says that our heart is deceitful above all things. Our faith and trust in God should not depend on emotions. His WORD is truth. Happy are those who's trust is in the Lord. It's my privilege to stay connect to my Lord, the owner of the universe with all these missionary friends at the field and those who are here, you inspire me to continue working for God's kingdom. My heart is been with you, I remember your face, your hard labor, in deed you are in my devotions. The G12 vision a breakthrough to focus on what's happened on the Cross. (that None should perish) Back to the cross, Christ had overcome the world. We will overcome it. Christ already redeemed the original plans of God in our lives and HE is in us.Greater is HE that is in us than he that is in the world. My ACM training, I treasure all those and been so bless by God's grace and mercy. My work as a Nurse, bring impact to helpless people that despite of their situation the love of God overflows His grace is sufficient enough by sharing His love to others is a privilege, like one story of dying patient she received Christ, (she followed the sinner's prayer) her children abroad came and amazed for they were praying for their mother would be save, the prayer of the righteous people is effective. It shows that God is in control.. He is at work 24/7. It's fulfilling and a privilege to share the good news where ever we are there is no respecter of place, no limits. Its beyond His call and passion. HIS ways is higher than ours, we can't fathom His ways. The matter of the fact that either we or not in the organization or no ministry at all, remind me that only God put us in the position that bring him glory. We may think we are right but only God judges our motive. That's why our prayer is like David prayers, "search me oh God and find me if any inequities in my heart forgive me and purify my heart." The Christ in us, His dealing in us is personal as unique individual. It is Him hang on the cross, it is Him our hope of glory, where ever God put us His light keeps shining on us, that people see truly we are serving the true and the Living God, the Emmanuel God. God is awesome!